Ughhhh Tired

Little known fact. I cry ALOT when I am over tired... I am like a freaking 4 year old...

I am ready for a teary day today.

And very very very angry. Very angry.

SERIOUSLY

I am a bit frustrated and really thinking about not logging onto Facebook again for a long time.

I am going to tell you all something that you can take whatever way you want. I DO NOT ENJOY SUBMITTING MYSELF TO THINGS THAT MAKE ME FEEL TERRIBLE. Makes sense I think.

Or not. I will elaborate.

For example. I do not watch Mississippi Burning, the colour purple, underground to canada, or any other those other movies centered around slavery and or cruelty. (With the BARELY exception of the racism in other movies such as Fried Green Tomatoes. (during which i leave the room probably). I like the idea around Casualties of war in that there was a sort of justice in teh end and michael J fox's character was such to be admired. I will never watch the movie again. EVER. I bought the movie sleepers years ago. I saw it when i was younger and thought it was a moving and powerful movie. Have I watched it since I bought it? No. I want to I jujst cant bring myself to do so. I love horror movies but hate the new genre of torture flicks that is replacing a good horror movie. It is one think to see teh big breasted chick scream in fear as she runs from Jason. Totally another to watch someone screaming in agony as they are tortured.

Understand now? I dont deny that there is bad in the world I just dont understand the need to revel in it. Seriously. It is my opinion and choice. Kev thinks it is wierd but it is me and I always have felt this way.

Which brings me to Facebook.

I totally understand the need to acknoledge child abuse and what happened to "Baby P" is the worst of it. The world should feel sorrow at what was done to that baby but I do not need it rubbed in my face. And I am at the point where I am angry and frustrated and ENRAGED at everyone who is doing just that. I didnt need to open facebook and see a detailed LIST of what was done becuase a contact of mine (not even a friend just someone who happened to add me) read it and commented on it.

what kind of bloodthirsty fucking society are we where someone would TYPE THAT OUT AND POST IT ON A PUBLIC FORUM?!?!?!??!!!! It disgusts me. Every person who read that disgusts me. Every person in every bloodthirsty group disgusts me.

I understand a memorial group etc but how are we remembering and honoring that sweet baby who lived and died when people are posting and reading that.

Do you turn and stare when you see a car accident in the hopes youll see blood?

Well I dont.

Have some fucking respect.




(I am not attacking my friends who read this. I am just so angry I needed to vent somewhere.)

The Little *^(*^$ $%^$^%#$% Did It Again!

OH BOY I AM OUTRAGED.

OUTRAGED!

trying to avoid my nasty words... Its not working.

Theyre lucky its saturday.

By God I am callimg tomorrow from work on my break.

The M*****F****** paper boy ripped me off AGAIN!

A Step and a Half Away From Pissed

SERIOUSLY WTF?

NO MONEY FROM THAT JACKASS.

Did you know our rent was to be paid YESTERDAY?
DID YOU KNOW IT IS NOW YESTERDAYS TOMORROW?

DID YOU KNOW IT WILL TAKE ME EXACTLY 7 MINUTES TO GET FROM HERE TO MAINTANENCE ENFORCEMENT?!!?!?!!!??

Ill be there tomorrow after lunch. I am severely PISSED. I DID SO MUCH TO MAKE THINGS EASIER ON THAT WORM. cant pay teh 15th can I cash the cheque on the last day of the month? SURREEEE even though now we have no money until the end of the month. NO PROB.

dont cash the cheque until the friday AFTER the end of teh month? SURE.

DONT CASH THE CHEQUE UNTIL THE SATURDAY AFTER? UMMM okaaay.

ILL FRICKING TRANSFER THE MONEY TO YOUR FRICKING ACCT ON THE FIRST OF NOVEMBER? SURE.

My ass. Welcome to november second.

OH IT IS ON.

WELCOME TO WAR MY SPINELESS LITTLE FRIEND.

WELCOME TO WAR.

So.

Karma maybe for the last post where I whined a bit for being broke?
Murphy's law? What can f*** up, will???
Again Karma? Couldnt this S*** wait until I have died and come back as a cockroach? (Bad religious joke.. I guess I do invite Karma...)
An attack of the "WHY MEEEE"s? (yep... a BIG ONE.)

Yesterday I opened our bank account online...
to show Kevin how to get to the balance to check how much he was paid this morning...
and got the "surprise" that ruined our nights...

no... not bank fraud... (I would prefer it frankly.)

Just a F****** maintance cheque BOUNCED into my account 2 days before Kev's pay is automatically put in.

And WHY GOOD FOLKS WHO POSSIBLY READ (or at least SKIM my blog occasionally) IS THIS A TRAGEDY?!?!

BECAUSE I WAS JUST COMPLAINING YESTERDAY ABOUT BEING DOWN TO PENNIES!?!?!!!!
ARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGEGEGGGAGAGGGGEGGEGGGG *facepalm*

So as of this morning we had $215 in our acct. Just enough to paid kevs family back FINALLY the money they have been waiting for desperately. (Why should anyone else suffer?)

Kev had nothing to take for lunch and, in the true form of cutting off his nose to suit his shitty night before, wouldnt take our only $20.00 to buy lunch... or the breakfast treat he was going to today. (yes it is noble but I am in a P***Y mood right now and refuse to be kind to anyone.)

So today will be SUPERFUN.

I will be messaging SHITHEAD (sorry "forgot" to bleep that) to inform him that his cheque bounced and (Using my "I" statements - healthier for everyone) that "I NEED him to TRANFER THE MONEY DIRECTLY TO MY ACCOUNT TODAY (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) because we HAVE NO F****** FOOD IN MY F****** HOUSE and therefore cant make suppers or send Samara a lunch." GOD F****** DAMN IT. (him, damn him who bounced the cheque... please, I swear I will attend church every week and PRAY and bow my head and shake hands and SING and EVERYTHING if only S***head comes through.)

and when he starts talking about the fee HE has to pay for bouncing it (becuase it is all about HIM and the world revolves around HIM) PLEASE grant me the clever-ness of tongue to let him know i dont give a RATS ASS ABOUT HIM OR HIS FEES.

Wish me luck.

I will be VERY crabby if he doest come through

Ill go teh the FREAKING FOOD BANK IF I HAVE TO but the food bank doesnt give out antihistamines for kevs hives that itch NOR DO THEY GIVE BIRTHCONTROL PATCHES. and I need a patch!


UGHHHH