Hey Deb, Wanna Babysit?????

Ugh

This whole find a babysitter everytime I work thing sucks. I need to find and settle on a babysitter. Deb has been my bestest and most reliable but she works unpredictable days too during teh week and her hubby is supposed to go back to work (or already did?) Which puts me back to crazy no babysitter land. UGHHHGHGHGHG.

There's Betty but I think DOnavan runs her ragged and I hate asking her because I dont know if she is agreeing because she thinks she cant say no or because she actually wants to. ACK. LOL.

I am trying to catch roberta on fb to see if she wouldnt mind taking samara home with her after school until kev gets home at 3ish. I work monday and tuesday. I always hate asking people becuase I feel (again) like I dont know if they are becuase they know I cant find anyone else or becuase they want to and I know myself I hate feeling like I havvvve to do somehting (like with my parents lol).

Theres lacy but she can only watch him if Matt is working days becuase when he works nights he works untl 12 and wants to sleep in.

Maybe I should ask Karen if she knows someone... BLAHHHHHHAHHAHHAHAH

(I am still going to call you deb! LOL).

Ugh Broke

Ugh I am dead broke... I just did up our ins and outs and there are FARRR too many outs. Add on top of that we need to do somethign about the fleabags... Im thinking were going to have to buy some cheaper stuff at walmart for another 2 weeks and hope that that does it... When Kev comes home I am sure he will have yet another thing that I ahve forgotten... It is times like this I think, "Why do I not babysit?" 2 reasons dear friends... A) dont like kids... which is not that big of a deal. a few hours wont kill me... it is B) that stops me. Kevin hatesssss kids. and his days off are Thursday, Friday. I dont need that stress. It is juts because were SO broke that It is all so crappy. I used to budget up down to the last doller but that is what put us so far behind. I would forget spending money, wed spend and then voila- a bill not paid. This week I left 30$ that i am NOT (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) devoting anywhere. That is after I have paid off my avon and kevin got his new game that just came out. plus anyhting over $500 is free money whether is is $5.00 or $50.00 :)
Ive got a gift for kevs mom bought (Avon) and I have a few for Kev and the kids picked out so I am getting a jump on it. My nerves cant take another christmas running at the last minute.

UGHHHH

gotta go russle up something for my little guy form our empty cupboards. LOL.