A little Frightened

The campout at Iris's is this weekend and I am a little frightened. It is going to be Iris and I and my kids, Maybe Nadine and hers, Megan and Brian and their granddaughter (Ive talked to megan and brian 1x since the whole family part thing when I was a kid) and APARENTLY debbie, ashley, and derek (and maybe a cousin of Iris's and henri and them saturday night). I dont talk to Debbie or Ashley and havent seen derek in years. But I am tired of holding my hateful mother's grudge. I dont care about anything from the past at this point. Really dont.I am so overcome with present drama that I dont have time for past ills...

Advice anyone???